Thoughts and Prayers

I spent a few moments on the shooting in Buffalo and my nervous system went into overload, I did not have the capacity to bare it.

I barely have the capacity for engaging with this next one in Uvalde either. Especially since someone just told me that this was the 27th school shooting in the United States in 5 months.

I know that right now, in this phase in my life, the most important thing above all else is to protect and heal myself. But, that doesn’t change this immediate issue that humanity is having, especially here in this colony.

I can do something, right? I must, right? I also know that bearing the weight to the world on my shoulders is not sustainable or effective.

Even posting and creating this episode qualifies as ‘thoughts’ in  ‘thoughts and prayers.’ And though I know criticisms of saying “thoughts and prayers“ carry  far more weight when we are talking about lawmakers, corporations, and organizations that have liquid values and seem to support and create mental illness, toxic communities, and weapons of mass destruction… this post is still a ‘thought.’

I am clear that our destruction issues are not going to be fixed by our system or our communities IN THE WAY WE ARE ASKING right now. What I see people calling out for is love, dignity, respect, accountability, integrity with basic values; these are not the qualities of our governing systems, corporate systems, and certain communities with tremendous $ resources. If it  isn’t clear by now, our government at the core was not made to govern or support human beings in integrity with love and respect; it was made to categorize and capitalize what ever it can perceive. There is deeper work a critical mass of us must engage with if we want to see change periodt.

So then what?

I go to my altar and I cry, I express, I call out for answers and this is what came to me. You are invited to engage with what you resonate with in this message...